Ok so I have been suffering Severe Depression for the last 5 years and before that I silently dealt with being a sexual abuse victom from a family member which caused me to be extra angry and withdrawn but when I dealt with that and talked to the people around me it has turned to depression? I have been in and out of work I’m slowly becomming more and mor of a hurmit, I still hate the things that has happened to me.
I am a Christian and along with this comes certain beleives about what happens when you die so last time I seriously thought about the end I knew I was about to meet hell so in the end I ended up in a mental hosp ….This might be comming out all screwed up but if I wrote all the situations and stuff down, no one would ever be able to read it in a life time. I’m trying to be a good Christian so I quit Smoking ontop of that 12 weeks ago and its just weird that I got through that but now I gotta get off all the prescription drugs Im hooked on because I’m starting to up them and now I’m liking the feeling I get from them and it would be sooooo easy to go to sleep after golping a few, help where do I go I’m sooo screwed up!!!!! And I was a bit shamed out to say this but I can’t die cos I have a wife with 4 wee kids AND THAT SHOULD MAKE ME HAPPY!!!!!!!
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